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i fall in love a little more each day [25 Mar 2014|10:33am]
i always knew i would fall in love with someone so wholly that my life would do a tailspin. when i met patrick, i knew i was in trouble.

it's been almost a year and a half since we met and i fall in love with him a little more as each day passes. it's usually the littlest of things; making a comment about us having kids, or bringing me close to him as we slow dance in the kitchen. just little things that fill small spaces in my heart. on saturday, he leaned over and asked the pregnant woman next to him if she minded if he smoked. the fact that he had the decency and the thought to do that brought a smile to my face and butterflies to my heart. he still can make my heart skip a beat when he gives me a genuine smile.

when other people compliment me on how amazing my boyfriend is, it makes me realize that all the toads and frogs i had to kiss, all the heartbreak i had to endure and all the tears i shed (including the ones for him) were all fucking worth it. i found my mate, my lobster. he's mine forever and i will be forever his. <3

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blair + chuck = chair, holly + patrick = polly or hatrick [11 Mar 2014|02:37pm]

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[17 Apr 2012|10:46pm]

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sexcapades [02 Sep 2008|05:31pm]
Dear Friends,

I have a request from all of you.

i have decided that i want to write a novel. not a "romance" novel, but a fictionalized novel of a woman's sexcapades here in south florida.

if you would like to contribute interesting, funny, awkward, embarassing, serious, romantic, hot, sleazy, sexy stories from your past (or a friend's), please feel free to message me. i will be forever grateful.

thanks so much! (and feel free to pass this on!!)

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my baby [13 Apr 2008|04:43pm]
[ mood | bored ]

this is my baby. blue is using his stuffed rooster i got from a denny's claw machine as a pillow. and yes, his eyes are really that color.


oh, and i dyed my hair. blue approves.

tis all for now, folks.

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"lonely hearts" release [25 Jul 2007|04:46pm]
[ mood | excited ]

i found on, and, that "lonely hearts" is being released on TUESDAY, JULY 31ST!

i'll be the first person in line :)

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[10 May 2007|06:17pm]

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes...

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

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[28 Apr 2007|11:04am]
[ mood | sad ]

this is hard. this is harder than i thought it would be. but i have some of the most amazing friends, and i have this incredible boyfriend... they're all there for me and i appreciate it.

i got a tattoo yesterday. i got the same design my father had on his right arm on my right foot. he would have gotten a kick out of me getting it on my right foot after it was his right foot that was amputated.

god i miss him.

here's the tattoo:

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[27 Apr 2007|09:31am]
[ mood | sad ]

R.I.P. Paul Castillo 1931-2007

my father was brought to the hospital wednesday, april 25th for the removal of his staples.
he died peacefully in his sleep at 4:45am, thursday, april 26th, 2007.

i'll always be daddy's little girl.


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and the magic 8 ball says... [21 Dec 2006|02:40am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

i hate everyone

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maybe it's the liquor, maybe it's the lack of sleep... [06 May 2006|05:30am]
[ mood | cold ]

it isn't fair.

i never seem to get what i want...

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i tend to jump to conclusions... [10 Apr 2006|03:22pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

around and around in circles i go
i hate jumping to conclusions, but honestly, what else am i supposed to do?

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ebay [28 Feb 2006|06:53pm]

support my friend, dammit!
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ain't it the truth! [05 Jan 2006|12:13am]
this was written by a woman, for women everywhere:

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man, before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think, "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. ALL MEN ARE NOT DOGS. You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with
your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other ladies... You'll make someone smile, another re-think her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, and an entire lifetime to forget them.
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[27 Sep 2005|08:10am]
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[16 Sep 2005|06:23pm]
[ mood | amused ]

damn he's fresh.

and you kiss your mother with that mouth?


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[07 Sep 2005|07:50pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

mixed signals = unfair

pitbull fans [03 Sep 2005|02:38pm]
if u would like to go see pitbull live FREE on october 8th, go:

and register for the free show. then just print out the ticket and there you go.

i got mine... but i don't wanna go by myself, so let me know if you're going.
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*throws rice* [09 Jul 2005|05:32am]
[ mood | giggly ]

so dave and i have decided to get married.
we're getting married by a justice of the peace.
just him and i.
maybe a witness.
we dont know yet.
will post pics later.

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[02 Jul 2005|06:44pm]
[ mood | happy ]


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